Hate

Safe Walls

I walk down the halls check all of the rooms
Everything in its right place clean sharp corners to sleep
No one’s getting round my eye on my keep
It took so many years to get it right
Each timber a flight from some new life

I made it safe I made it sound
Safe walls that rose from solid ground
I wonder though am I afraid these walls that surround of mortal clay
They keep everything out except what I’ve let in
The cast is growing smaller patience growing thin

These hands were good these hands held strong
How quickly they built a mocking bird’s song
I’ve got a castle now fill it with all my pets of prey
They are the only ones I can count on not to come back at the end of the day

I made it safe I made it sound
Safe walls that rose from solid ground
I wonder though am I afraid these walls that surround of mortal clay
They keep everything out except what I’ve let in
The cast is growing smaller patience growing thin

To build a home is a sacred thing
They say build it in your heart where you can be king
But what of your heart its state and its place
Making decisions in the dark hidden from the light of days
The perfect sanctuary respite reprieve
Who knows behind a darkling gate what we come to believe

I made it safe I made it sound
Safe walls that rose from solid ground
I wonder though am I afraid these walls that surround of mortal clay
They keep everything out except what I’ve let in
The cast is growing smaller patience growing thin

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Benefit Of Doubt

Been listening to long to that voice in my head
Who is it today that it wants dead
Is it me or is it you don’t think its going to decide in time
Guess I’ll write another rhyme
I woke up today and the voice just said I think it’s her that I want dead
Now I’ve been through this it’s such a chore
She can’t go she would’nt before
That voice don’t care won’t leave me alone
Guess its time to throw that next stone

Why is it when I’m alone with my thoughts
I watch my past while it rots
Lookin at the world with hourglass eyes
Time slips in while time slips by
I stand in awe of all that change
Superficial words made with a superficial brain

Maybe though theres that spark of hope
I think my friend has found a boat
He tells me all that doubt it ain’t no thing
He always picks up when the telephone rings
He’s one of the oldest to teach me to see
The benefit of doubt grows like a tree
It grows slow and you won’t always understand why
But mark my words it reaches for the sky

So thank the stars it reaches to I’m not alone
Even when I don’t pick up and he’s there callin on that phone
And it may sit there and just ring ring ring
Sometimes I just don’t want to hear anything
Only that voice so loud in my head that decided today it wants her dead

Always so insistent always on my side
Fuck her it says would’nt care if you died
But I think I’m starting to know that voice so well
King of its little kingdom angry outside its boundaries you dwell
So it hurts and I don’t always wan’t to agree
But that phone doesnt stop ringing that calls for me
And maybe a conversation is just what I need
To plant the benefit of doubt that sacred seed

Dead Lips

One’s as good as the other don’t worry to much
That’s just one liar to another
So many choices to make so many dots at the end of the line
You better know by now it’s all just borrowed time

Just one more kiss on dead lips then we can make it all stop
This time on dead lips now lets take it from the top
Glad I know the feeling now that won’t happen again
Won’t ever put a picture inside another broken frame

I could never imagine being apart from you
I don’t want to hear that you woke up
I hadn’t finished drinking from my fathers broken cup
I wanted that fence so white and beautiful
Behind it a dream that housed utopias glow

Just one more kiss on dead lips then we can make it all stop
This time on dead lips now lets take it from the top
Glad I know the feeling now that won’t happen again
Won’t ever put a picture inside another broken frame

But I guess when I really look back I was filling in all the holes
Happy smiling faces where my bruises and tears could not console
A million wrongs have I made right shadow on a past shadow cast by early light
Maybe we were meant, meant not to be
But now your just another one hiding inside of me
A loophole in the past something maybe we should’nt grasp
An empty space I fill with light that lets me sleep for one more night

Just one more kiss on dead lips then we can make it all stop
This time on dead lips now lets take it from the top
Glad I know the feeling now that won’t happen again
Won’t ever put a picture inside another broken frame